hedonistpoet:

He had something about him
So charming and dangerous
I wanted to stay away from him
But he pull me back in with his promises

He smoked the way artists art
Deeply shallow and hot
I didn’t want to kiss him
But the way he did lines blessed him

The tough act and flirting fooled me
Girls, drugs and smoking wooed me
I wanted to be the only one
But that was far from the reality

- Hira

(via crazylov3rs)

depression-stays-but-you-dont:

naturaekos:

“You don’t ever have to feel guilty about removing toxic people from your life. It doesn’t matter whether someone is a relative, romantic interest, employer, childhood friend, or a new acquaintance — you don’t have to make room for people who cause you pain or make you feel small. It’s one thing if a person owns up to their behavior and makes an effort to change. But if a person disregards your feelings, ignores your boundaries, and continues to treat you in a harmful way, they need to go.”

— Daniell Koepke (via naturaekos)

(via enicole)

alifechasingchaos:

Misplaced Anger.

Sometimes I notice myself being overcome with rage at little to no provocation.

Rage is absolutely terrifying when you can’t see it coming.

I find myself having breakdowns over small irritations or lashing out at those I love.

Trauma repressed an anger within me that’s forced to find alternate ways to be felt.

I’m so inherently angry for events I often refuse to accept, that I end up fixating on insignificant things to artificially ease my pain.

It’s much easier to be angry than it is to feel grief.

This misplaced anger fracturesy relationships, creates a perpetual anxiety, and is yet another source of overwhelming guilt.

And yet, confronting the source of my emotional distress is far more terrifying than embracing my rage.

starvetobelovely:

My biggest reasons for wanting to lose weight

• So I can look in a mirror and not hold back pity tears
  
• So that my skinny, beautiful best friend isn’t the only one getting compliments
  
• So my family can stop comparing my size to my thin sisters
  
• So I can stop saying no to cute clothes because I’m scared I won’t look as good
  
• So I can feel sexy and confident with my husband and not worry if he’s thinking I look bad
  
• So I can order a milkshake without feeling like people are watching me and thinking I’m fat
  
• So I can prove to my ex-classmates that I’m not ugly or gross like they said
  
• So I can take a picture with friends and not judge every aspect of myself compared to them
  
• So I can stop calling myself terrible, self-hateful things
  
• So I can believe my husband and friends when they call me beautiful
  
• So I can feel confident and worthy to be confident in myself
  
• So I can stop bothering everyone with how depressed I am with myself
  
• So I can say that I did it, that I accomplished a goal
  

(via starvetobelovely)

juansendizon:

“But I have to love now without carrying your name every second of every minute of every day.”

— Juansen Dizon